EPISODE 1: RECAP

Well, today is Monday.
Mondays are shite, at least for those of us above the age of 6.
But see, today I realised, avoiding the monday morning blues is pretty simple!
Just sleep right through it!
That`s what I did today..I woke up at 2pm, slightly confused as always and for once, the sun was shining outside! Spring is definitely on it`s way!
But I guess it isn`t very good advice..I am only able to sleep through my Monday mornings because I am on sick-leave at the moment. And I have been for over 3 months now, thanks to problems with my shoulder. Long story, I`ll save that for another day.


But, let me tell you about my weekend!
See, for the past couple of months..no, years, actually, my love life has been pretty tangled up.
I have a tendency of being way too picky on the guys I meet, or maybe I`m just not meeting the right guys, I don`t know, but the past 6 months or so have been very complicated.
To make another long story short, I have managed to unintentionally break a few hearts and so my new year`s resolution have been to try to avoid that from now on.


Just before christmas, I broke up with accountant-guy after a huge discussion about a pack of bacon. Seriously.
A bit sad, but I guess I realised we are a bit too different. Or, I knew all along.
His idea of happiness is not to have too high expectations; that way you won`t ever be disappointed, he says.
My idea of hell on the other hand, is settling for average/ok/good. I want fanfuckingtastic!


So that ended. And in my usual way, I avoided heartache by deciding to stay single, but ended up moving on to the next victim, I mean potential partner for life.
I started dating IT-guy. It all started out good, we went on a spontaneous weekend to Japan, had fun. This guy is great. He is perfect boyfriend material in many ways; he would do anything for me. Way too kind, generous, caring, loving etc etc.
But I got a bit scared off when he got very serious very quickly.
By date 2, he asked me how I feel about having children.
By month 2, he wrote me a several page long handwritten love letter.
I don`t really know what my problem is, but something is missing. I see all his flaws instead of his advantages, and I can`t seem to ignore them!
So I told him earlier this month that I wanted some `time out`. I told him from the get go that I didn`t want to commit to him, and every time he asked if we could be exclusive, I told him I didn`t want to yet, but somehow he chose to ignore that (Not the first time that has happened..).
Now he is pretty gutted. He writes and says he misses me, doesn`t want to let me go this way, we have so many things and places to explore together etc etc..but I don`t think this is THE ONE, so I think I am doing the right thing by letting him go so he can find someone who appreciates all he has to give. Feel awful, I know how much it hurts, but I`m trying not to feel too guilty, as I have been honest all along and can`t help my feelings (or lack of..)! 


So, what do you think I did next? Are you keeping up?
Well, I somehow got another date!
Current guy is engineering-guy. First swedish guy I have ever dated, except from one idiot I briefly dated when I was a teenager.
I agreed to a date, and got really nervous, but the date went really well!
Our first date actually lasted a whooping 11 hours! Maybe I should be in the Guiness book of world records? 
I`m sure I hold a record in something. Failed relationships, long dates, amount of tops in my wardrobe with the pricetag still attached, no?
Back to the date.
As I am new in town, he suggested a place where we sat down for some nice cocktails and a chat. The chairs were huge, so I found it impossible to sit in it and look normal! Anyway, moved on from that to a Tapas restaurant where we had a meal, I managed to drop my cutlery to the floor with a big bang, very typical me, some beers and when the restaurant shut, it was pretty late, so the only places that were still open, were more club-kind of bars.
I couldn`t help myself, and suggested we go back to mine for some wine.
So we did. Except we had rum & coke instead of the wine.
And we stayed up until 6 in the morning, watching tv and just talking about random stuff! That`s a lot of talking!
Had to send him home in the end, when we both started yawning.




Anyway, this post is getting ridiculously long now, so fast forward;
cinema, food, film, tv, talk..
Which brings us up to present day, and my next post.